baby talk

I've been struggling a lot recently with Isaiah's "demands." His little will seems to be making itself known more and more these last few weeks and it's been...challenging. : )
Needless to say, I'm realizing that I really have to search my heart here...what I mean is, when he does something irritating, like, start wailing the minute I put him down, I have to really examine my heart because my gut reaction is to be like, 'just be happy, be quiet, why are you bothering me with this loud noise?'
And sometimes he may just need to be quiet and happy without me holding him, this is true, but I want to make sure that my reaction to him isn't just frustration or...of course, pure selfishness!
Woah! Selfishness meets selfishness maybe? Weird, I never even thought of it that way until just now...
What I'm realizing is, when Isaiah fusses and I feel it is unnecessary that he fuss (ie he could be happy if he just wanted to!), if I am irritated just because he is inhibiting me from doing what I want to do than aren't I possibly just being selfish? And why is my selfishness more justifiable than his?
Maybe I'm the one who needs to just be quiet and happy! Ha!
But anyway, tonight as I was walking him to sleep in our dark bedroom for the second time in the last 30 minutes, I remembered my first post here and how much I really love to be "needed" by Isaiah. I was reminded, by God I'm sure!, that Isaiah really does need me to fall asleep soundly, to be well fed, to be happy and loved. And I sigh. With happiness and contentment.
It really is good to be needed. And it feels way better to see my relationship with him that way rather than feeling just pulled on and fussed at when I don't mean his "demands." Someone else reminded me today that crying IS his only means of communication, it's not like he can say please and thank you just yet. : )
So, I just needed to get that down in print...to help me remember, when I need to be reminded again...maybe tomorrow.

Other things....
Isaiah and I have found wild blackberries. A lot of blackberries! I think this makes me really happy because I found free food, and it brings back memories of picking berries as a kid.

I got to model two wedding dresses for a brand new wedding dress designer last week! I got my hair and make up done at a really sweet salon and then we took pictures in the gardens at UNC. So fun!

We've recently discovered that Isaiah LOVES animals-- at least dogs and cats. Today I took him to my friends house with a big orange cat and Isaiah scooted -as fast- as he could across the floor, grinning and grunting, trying to chase the cat down and grab it!

Autumn had her baby today!! and I was in the waiting room with Beka and Rebecka and it was so exciting. The night before we had all been hanging out, eating spicy food (Autumns idea to get her labor going ;) and talking about how there really is a baby right inside her belly, just about to come out!
Samuel John came out with dark hair and his mommies sweet eyes! I couldn't believe how much he looked like Autumn. After I held him and I went back to Isaiah I figured Samuel is about the size of one of Isaiah's legs. No joke. Samuel is only 6 lbs.

I hope to post pictures really soon!