milky way

Hooray!! I think I just cracked a craving....
See all the sudden I wanted something sweet for the last week, and it's been bad news for my body. A) I know I shouldn't eat too much and B) There is already too much yeast growth going on without any more sugar for it to feed on, if you know what I mean and C) Muffin doesn't need sugar!
SO it was really frustrating me because I couldn't figure out what I wanted tonight, I felt like I was craving chocolate, but not exactly, and not ice-cream, which is usually my first choice.
I'm also relatively full, so craving any food at all just didn't seem right...and then I realized it--
I haven't had much milk around the house for the last week and so I haven't been drinking any or maybe just a tiny bit. And all the sudden I *really* wanted some.
YES.
That was what I've been craving all along (I hope!).
Thankfully Wednesday is my raw milk delivery day.... in the mean time at least I can bargain with my body and hopefully still the false sweet-foods craving.

Ok, the end-- just had to get that down in writing so I won't forget!

a sunny day in photos

Levi bought me a 'blogging' camera -- small enough to carry in your pocket but better quality than a cell phone. So to celebrate (yesterday) I photo journaled the day....
it turned out to be a pretty busy day and it was SO beautiful, too!


the first picture I took with my new camera.
This was Isaiah when he first noticed the
it and thought he might have a chance to touch it.


And the 2nd picture was when
the off-limits-camera truth was
revealed to him--
"You're depriving me!"


Happy to be outside, surveying
our old neighborhood pond on the
way to his weekly "play date."


The geese swam up to us and
I had to keep Isaiah from running
into the pond after them.


At Michael's house, the host of our
play group. The only reason Isaiah is sitting
still here is the food...


Because, as you can see here,
he is the only one not on the couch
for the group photo...
bummer.


He just chilled on my lap.


Home. Crashed.


So I played with the camera
taking classic myspace photos
of myself...


Awake! : )


Very cute awakeness...


wake up snuggles


I love it when he wakes up happy!


picnic late lunch






he's just got to that stage where
he likes to pull sandwiches apart
and eat out his favorite fillings.



more geese!


we threw his leftover bread to
the ducks and he was so excited
that when we ran out he threw two
carrot sticks and almost donated his
sippy cup to them.




As we were getting ready to
walk home a family came
with a remote-control
motor boat and drove
it around the lake...Zay watches
intently.


On the way home we stopped at
a neighbor's and played in their
backyard. (My feet hurt by the
end of this day)


I sat on Lora's cute blanket...


And last of all...while Levi
took Isaiah on a wal-mart/chick-
fil-a adventure, I went to see my
friend's -24 hour old baby!!


I definitely can't wait to hold
our tiny little munchkin.

munchable

My husband is really getting into a blogging groove and I can't let my blog grow boring in comparison. Because you know it's a competition to get the most readers... okay not really, I don't even know how to check that sort of thing.

All the men of the house are watching Cloverfield except Isaiah who, sigh, is asleep! : ) The movie watching around here is majorly slanted to the action/action-hero/drama/comedy genre's. Chick flicks or even romances are rare. I'm fighting for it, but it's an uphill battle. Mostly because 99.99% of the movies Levi and I own all belonged to him pre-marriage (read: bachelor!). So this month my goal is to start a list of quality girl movies/romances. I'm also looking for suggestions!! Please leave a comment with any you can think of.

Today was kind of a hard day for me. I had my first appointment with the midwives group I'm planning to deliver with. At 7:30am (yeah, that was not my choice of timing). Then, my alarm went off late, or I slept through it....either way, we woke up late, and didn't have time to drop Isaiah off at the babysitters. So 99% of the time I was there filling out paperwork or repeating back to the nurse what I had already put in the paperwork or finally meeting with Norma, one of the midwives, Levi was outside circumnavigating the building for the 47th time with Isaiah, the ever toddling toddler. Needless to say, that was not what we had planned. Two and 1/2 hours later I emerged, tired and a emotionally drained from telling the nurse and midwife about Amy's recent death. I had wanted them to know because it's definitely a huge deal right now as far as my emotional health but it was hard explaining everything, and to a complete stranger. Please pray for me. It's been a month and this is hard. I miss Amy, and even though I've accepted where she is and trust the Lord totally, I still miss her and nothing can bring her back to me....

Levi and I are getting more and more and more excited about Muffin (baby)!! I can visualize the baby now and picture myself holding him/her. SO CUTE! I got to hold a newborn baby a few days ago and my heart just m-e-l-t-e-d. I cannot wait to snuggle up to my very own little little baby again. : )

And now, my bigger baby:

a three hour nap

Isaiah has been asleep now for about 3 hours. : )

Right now I have a load of clean laundry gathering wrinkles in a basket, 3 phone calls to return, and two burnt fingers. I also need to pee. Which is a minor inconvenience as I have to run to the bathroom about every 30 minutes (it seems...). Even one of our male roommates noticed how much I go. : P

It is another beautiful day outside. And I mean bee-e-a-you-tiful. I am trying to soak in all of the sweet spring sunshine that I can before the full throttle, South Carolina summer sun let's loose.
My dreams of frequenting the neighborhood pool are on hold until I attend the Home Owner's Association meeting (translation-- trial for those who leave their trash cans out overnight and the discussion of possible punishment of revoked community pool rights). Apparently there are a lot more rules to living in this neighborhood than we knew about, partially because we're renting and weren't aware of all the "homeowner's" rules.

Anyway, it's been about 6 hours since I started this post and in between the pool paragraph and here Levi, Isaiah and I had dinner with the Mervins (directors of theCause USA) and Levi and I went to see Leatherheads. It's past my bedtime. : )

Goodnight.

baby pictures

Me and baby














Baby side shot #1














Baby side shot #2















I actually don't look as big as I feel, at all...














19 weeks to go!

(p.s. we haven't found out who he/she is and as of right now we're not planning on finding out... : ))

I'm so proud of him

from this...















to this!

potty break

I'm going to the women's conference at Morningstar this weekend along with lots of other beautiful women -- including Cathy M, Jane & Mary Z!! God is being so awesome here!!
Since coming back home I haven't been very emotional... I think it's a mix of distance, some numbness (not in a bad way, but just adjusting slowly) as well as peace from the Lord. But during every worship set today the tears came. The Lord is washing my mind with His reality of Amy. He is reminding me that she dances and worships with abandonment before Him. That she is free.
Free. Like He is making me. Free from pride that keeps me from my destiny, free from confusion that clouds His revelation.
For instance, since having Isaiah, a lot of things have changed (obviously)! One of those being the amount of time and "focus" I can devote to specific worship/preaching at conferences like this one this weekend. Sometimes I would find myself kind of resenting Isaiah's behavior for making me leave early or miss parts or leave when worship was "really good."
But tonight I felt this amazing breakthrough as I took Isaiah to the bathroom during this beautiful worship song and this intense atmosphere of freedom. What I realized was that I am channeling the heart of God as a mother to my son when I take any time necessary to be with my him and meet his needs! I realized that I was experiencing how God feels about me in that He loves to take "time out" to meet my needs whenever and wherever! I am not "missing out" on anything spiritual as I invest in my son and instill in him just how precious he is to me and the Lord!